Today is the 9th March 2009 . Hmmm, i must say the work life's monday blues and school's monday blues are so different . Zzz . 

I feel so lifeless . Nothing good about life . 

And i've been thinking too much lately . I don't know why . 

我似乎非常害怕有一天会失去你。虽然你说过，我们唯一分开的理由是我提出，但我始终不信。我害怕你骗我，因为如果是这样的话，我不会在信你第二次。我好想天天就睡在你身边，抱着你一直到我入梦，醒来时，看到的，就是我亲爱的你。

我不知道为何会害怕你不再爱我，但就应为这样，我似乎每天都地看到你睡着在安心。告诉我，我为何会那么想？告诉我，我们会永远属于对方的。告诉我，你没骗过我，也不会骗我。

I used to think that i could live all by myself and that i don't need anyone . I could club all i want, do whatever i like, all the freedom i have to myself and my posh little home, gather all my girlfriends and have a mini-party at my posh house . And that was exactly a year ago . I have done so many things that people around me wouldn't believe that i've done it, i've changed from a like-to-be-at-home girl to a super clubber at late night . And that was all my memories, though i never regretted living through that, because i once had been so happy that chances of being so happy again is 0.01%, but i'm still glad it's over . I have changed for the better, for someone who promised to love me . Nevertheless, i'm still trying, struggling between what was i a year ago, and what i have to changed for him . I never shout when i get angry with him, is because i knew i would regret quarrelling over issues which would dissolve on it's own with time.